We had our AGM and qualifiers this last weekend. I approached it with some trepidation, since I had only been given two weeks' notice that there was another girl in armour who wanted to fight. I've had some setbacks with my training recently because of injury to my coccyx, and more recently, a silly, nasty cold that took it out of me.
I had also felt thoroughly demotivated to train, to fight, to armour, or even to think about sword. Towards the end of the year, it seemed that the harder I tried to improve access to the sport and offer a positive input, the harder I was kicked in the teeth. Eventually, it really began to feel like a bad day at the office was better than a good day of sword.
It wasn't so much the fighting that caused the nerves. Rather, it was the fact that I knew I was about to face the Judgement of the Members. As with everything in South Africa, we fighters are a highly political group, and having been one of the founding members of Battle Heritage South Africa, I have been well schooled in the nastiness of the business, over the last two years.
Having invested so much of myself in the creation and growth of the organisation, I guess it was a bitter pill to swallow, when I was voted off as women's captain. I suppose that the moral of the story is that if you don't get along with the majority, then at some point, it will be time to go. What bit me was that, given the choice between someone with no actual combat experience and two weeks into wearing armour, and me, the majority of members chose the noob. Ouch!
Don't get me wrong: I've always gotten along with the new captain and I have the highest respect for her husband, who is our best longsword fighter. It still sucked a bit. And so I spent the day commiserating with Steph that she couldn't compete, talking armour and fighting styles and just chilling, watching the guys.
So the next day, we had our two fights.
Here is the longsword bout. (Thanks goes to Eurika Dippenaar and her family for the video and photos.) That was first, and we all know that the first fight is usually a fuckup. It actually went to three rounds. In my defence, though, I have been training almost entirely in polearm, when I have been training.
The sword and shield was a wee bit better, and I had warmed up nicely, so the breathing and moving came easier. That only took two rounds.


We left shortly after they started the polearm bouts, but not before I got to see one of my polearm fighters (not really mine because he belongs to my old club) give a really good account of himself in the lists, and validate my efforts just a little bit. Two of my other buddies who have been training with us also did well. It made me happy and proud.
I think that what I took away from the weekend was this: you can't have everything your own way all the time, and there is always a price for speaking your mind. You just have to be able to pay it when it comes due.
Also, I guess I need to realise that for me, it was already a given. If I had to choose between winning the popularity contest and winning the fights, I'd choose the fights every single time.
Always have, always will.
So now I'm free to do things my own way, to train and to fight, and somehow, to make my way back to the fun of it all again.
I started fighting because it was in my dreams and daydreams and wishes from when I was a small child. It was fun when I started, in a much simpler time, five years ago. I want that again, and I think that it's what I will be aiming for now, when I train, when I fight, and when I train my buhurt team. We'll make it good again, and that will make us great.
I'll see you at the Red Lion Challenge in Luxembourg, and perhaps we can dance a bit in the lists, you and I.
I had also felt thoroughly demotivated to train, to fight, to armour, or even to think about sword. Towards the end of the year, it seemed that the harder I tried to improve access to the sport and offer a positive input, the harder I was kicked in the teeth. Eventually, it really began to feel like a bad day at the office was better than a good day of sword.
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After day one - group photo of BHSA |
Having invested so much of myself in the creation and growth of the organisation, I guess it was a bitter pill to swallow, when I was voted off as women's captain. I suppose that the moral of the story is that if you don't get along with the majority, then at some point, it will be time to go. What bit me was that, given the choice between someone with no actual combat experience and two weeks into wearing armour, and me, the majority of members chose the noob. Ouch!
Don't get me wrong: I've always gotten along with the new captain and I have the highest respect for her husband, who is our best longsword fighter. It still sucked a bit. And so I spent the day commiserating with Steph that she couldn't compete, talking armour and fighting styles and just chilling, watching the guys.
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chilling at the lists with Steph and Josh |
So the next day, we had our two fights.
Here is the longsword bout. (Thanks goes to Eurika Dippenaar and her family for the video and photos.) That was first, and we all know that the first fight is usually a fuckup. It actually went to three rounds. In my defence, though, I have been training almost entirely in polearm, when I have been training.
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winning longsword |


We left shortly after they started the polearm bouts, but not before I got to see one of my polearm fighters (not really mine because he belongs to my old club) give a really good account of himself in the lists, and validate my efforts just a little bit. Two of my other buddies who have been training with us also did well. It made me happy and proud.
I think that what I took away from the weekend was this: you can't have everything your own way all the time, and there is always a price for speaking your mind. You just have to be able to pay it when it comes due.
Also, I guess I need to realise that for me, it was already a given. If I had to choose between winning the popularity contest and winning the fights, I'd choose the fights every single time.
Always have, always will.
So now I'm free to do things my own way, to train and to fight, and somehow, to make my way back to the fun of it all again.
I started fighting because it was in my dreams and daydreams and wishes from when I was a small child. It was fun when I started, in a much simpler time, five years ago. I want that again, and I think that it's what I will be aiming for now, when I train, when I fight, and when I train my buhurt team. We'll make it good again, and that will make us great.
I'll see you at the Red Lion Challenge in Luxembourg, and perhaps we can dance a bit in the lists, you and I.